The Bride Life

“Thank you for booking your trip. Your itinerary to Daegu, Republic of Korea is shown below…”

My life is a dream. No, it’s better. It’s like all the best parts in all my favourite books put themselves into an anthology of literary genius and then became my life.

To be so abundantly cared for, and blessed by God is really… it’s something. Forgive my stunted speech.

Four years ago, I started working at Panera Bread in order to make some travelling money for my upcoming trip to the UK. That’s when people started asking if I was part Asian, which led me to watch a few anime out of curiosity. It’s where I suggested my soon-to-be-sister-in-law get hired, which is how she introduced me to the idea of her brother being a catch. It is also where I met a really awesome manager who got me hooked on Korean dramas and made me realise it was Korea-Asia I loved, and not so much Japan, China, etc.

Now I’m getting married to my Lieutenant in 97 days, and we’re going to Korea for our honeymoon, where his brother and his wife happen to be stationed. What?

God is such a genius. That’s an incredible understatement, but words fail me.

97 days…

The peanut butter I opened today expires after that.

The beauty products I’m currently using will be the same ones I use as a wife.

The reward expirations on customer’s Panera cards are starting to creep into dates past our wedding.

Sometimes it seems crazy close and a little too soon, but only in terms of the wedding. Marriage… Marriage I’m impatient for. I’m eager to start learning how to cook for two. I’m excited about kitchen tools, and laundry baskets, and turning a place into a home. I’m ready for my fiance to have a wife to come home to, a face to kiss awake in the morning, and more in-person devotions than over-the-phone prayers. For all these and more, 97 days is too far away.

The wedding, moving away, and prospect of no longer being 15 minutes from my best friend and my person are all making my head and heart slow down a bit. But as we keep reminding each other, this is not the end of all things in friendships. There are these great inventions like aeroplanes and video chats, and as my engagement has proven, distance cannot quench true love.

Speaking of which, am I the only one who feels The Song of Solomon is too romantic for unmarried folk to read together? I know it’s a picture of Christ and His bride, the church, but I’m finding it difficult to not be swooned in a heap when David and I read bits together.

Matthew Henry’s commentary helps put it in the spiritual context, but when it’s eveningtime and David’s manly voice is reading the greatest love story ever recorded, it’s like… “Whoa, there, sailor. Maybe we save that for the honeymoon, yeah?”

Just me? Or am I not totally crazy in this? 

Happy Sabbath, everyone!! Here’s a peek of the Sunday School lesson today.

Reasons (not) to Cry

I’ve probably said it before, but I’ll say it again. The more reasons I have to write blog posts, the less I end up writing. “If life happened less, I might be able to talk about it more.” That’s not quite the quote, but it’ll do. I think it’s hilarious that I keep getting notifications telling me my blog stats are booming. From what, exactly?  I haven’t posted in ages! But then, I guess I’m still getting favourites and followers from that one short Pride and Prejudice story on FFN I never expected to get any attention. The internet really does let things linger. For better or for worse.

Just to get you up to speed, here’s a whirlwind catch up, which I’m far too lazy at the moment to elaborate on:

I’m pretty good at knitting baby hats and can even do some fancy lace patterns by now.

My knitting has had an unexpected side effect, which replaced paperbacks for audio books because I like to multitask, and “read” while I knit. It’s not a permanent switch, but it has been kind of neat to measure my projects with how many chapters I’ve gone through.

It makes me mad when people say I must be relieved that my fiance isn’t here to get underfoot during wedding planning. -_-‘ It’s like… have you met me?

I still watch Korean dramas. I’d say I watch a lot of dramas, but I have nothing on my sixteen year old sister, so I’ll refrain from making it sound like a big deal. Although it’s overwhelming to think of all the review posts I’m behind in.

I only work at Panera two days a week (every once in a while, three) and I love so much having the rest of the week free for babysitting, family time, sleep overs, and spontaneous journeys to the base my fiance gets sent to.

My current writing project, which is a Colonel Brandon and Marianne novel, is over 45% complete. Which reminds me, I still have word quota to accomplish today.

I’m going to Maine in April.

I seem to cry all the time at everything these days.

And that leads me to the inspiration for this post.

My KitKat recently sent me a link to hilarious reasons people cried while on their period. We didn’t dare make fun of any of them, because each one is completely relatable. I’m not even suffering the monthly affliction at present, and yet I find myself weeping at everything and nothing. You probably can guess what’s coming next, right? I mean, if you’ve followed this blog at all, you know I’m obsessed with making lists. I love lists! Here’s the list.

Reasons I Cried Today

  1. I didn’t think I’d said, “I love you” the right way, or enough times over the phone after morning devotions.
  2. My socks were the wrong length but I didn’t want to change them because my feet would be cold for the two seconds they were in transition from the wrong socks to the right ones.
  3. I had this song in my head: Because I -Lasse Lindh
    And I don’t know why this made me cry, because I understand the lyrics less than if it was entirely in Korean, and I laugh at it fondly because it’s like the artist wrote a song in his native language and put it through Google Translate for the English version and recorded it that way.
  4. I thought of lying to my fiance.
  5. I admitted to my fiance that I thought about lying to him.
  6. Google wouldn’t load the image search I prompted for “fluffy baby chicks.”
  7. Google finally loaded, and I saw pictures of fluffy baby chicks.
    fluffy chicks
  8. I glanced at the package of Digestive biscuits on my desk and felt overpowered by having British treats in the Americas.
  9. I walked into the garage and couldn’t remember why.
  10. My fiance said “I love you” and I felt that was impossible, because I’m super weepy and annoying today.

    Well, there you are. If you ever feel silly for crying at something… don’t. Because I exist.


3×30 Challenge 10 – Just an Ordinary Girl

Day 10: Something at which you’ve been a champion or the best.

To see this challenge list from the beginning, click here.

 Trick question. See, I have the potential to be ‘the best’ at some things, but I lack dedication and length of purpose to truly master any given pursuit. I think I still have the highest score for reading speed drills of all the students at my school! (My nine siblings.) There’s not much I’d consider myself a champion at, though. If I was better at practicing, studying, and being overall disciplined in whatever subject I wanted to excel at, I could probably be more than above average. But I’m not. I’m gifted in writing, languages, and apparently customer service when I try. I’d hardly call myself a champion or the best in any of those fields, however.

Favourite Classic Literary Book

Pride and Prejudice. I’ve read all of Jane Austen’s works, and some more than others, but the older I get and the more I reread them, the more I love Pride and Prejudice the best.

A Song That Makes You Fall Asleep

Josh Groban’s: Love Only Knows

Whenever I have trouble falling asleep I play Illuminations from the beginning, and by the start of this song I’m almost completely out. I don’t remember the last time I heard the song all the way through. Almost all the songs on this album are incredibly soothing, though. I feel stupid for suffering that bout of insomnia a while back and not trying this album. Fewlish me.



My week was so lovely. Because of reasons. :) And my laptop is back from the shop!

Not a Drill

Remember a year ago on April Fools I posted a tricksy post about being “Off the Market” which was actually true because, you know, David, but I made it seem untrue because I also said I’d quit Kdramas in the same post which was very much not true, so some of you had no idea what to think?

Well, I just want you all to know that what I’m about to post here is exactly what it looks like and it truly happened, and this is not a trick or a spoof or a joke and yes, I’m as freakishly happy as you’d imagine.

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3×30 Challenge 09 – I am a crazy person

Day 09: One place you hope to visit or travel to this year.

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3×30 Challenge 07 – Change

Day 07: An example of change being good

Personal growth. Repairing a broken relationship. Puberty. Refocusing your priorities in a more productive manner. Adding to your family whether by marriage, babies, or deciding you’re keeping your non-blood-related friends forever and ever with blood pacts and signed contracts.

Most Underrated Book You Ever Read:

Hm. The books I read aren’t usually underrated. The controversial ones are still acknowledged by vast amounts of people (sometimes more so because of controversy) and the more obscure ones I’ve read were recommended to me by trusted readers who rated them highly for good reason. So I’m going to give credit to an entire genre that some intellectuals may scoff at in their ignorance.

Fan fiction, dearies.

Yes, I may be ruffling the feathers of many a purist, but come now. Isn’t the very purpose of good fiction to inspire us to broaden our imaginations, understand new concepts, and make sure the couples that stupid television writers refused to give happy endings to get their just romance after all!? Okay, that last bit may be a stretch. Still, I hold to my position. You may have to wade through a listing of absurdities and smut-based non-plots before finding a gem of a story, but that’s where you learn discernment and perseverance!

As a side note, I do not, nor will I ever condone what I consider “historical fan fiction.” That’s taking historical figures and twisting their real life stories into something they were not. Disney did this with Pocahontas, and it is a travesty and I hate it a lot. But properly written fan fiction is an art, and I consider it very flattering to the authors who allow it.

A Song That Reminds You of an Important Event

My littlest brother was born to the Phantom of the Opera soundtrack, specifically The Point of No Return. My baby sister was born as Defying Gravity played.


Usually, my Fridays look something like this…

But since I wasn’t needed for babysitting today, I ended a beautiful friendship by wearing overalls. On purpose.

My fashion conscious best friend cannot accept this treachery. But I’m sure she was totally joking about not sending me the wedding chapter she just wrote. :) Wait…

Uh oh.